I Love the Holidays.
We’re back at my parents’ house. Things were kind of awkward at first… my parents weren’t used to me being a girl. Like, really looking, talking, dressing, and acting like one. To me it’s second nature now but to them it’s new. They’re getting better, but I had plenty of sadness and angst about it at first. I also really wanted to see my extended family on Christmas and so I had to go to their house in “boy mode”. Awkward. They all know (as far as I’m aware) but they didn’t want me “confusing” the younger kids. *sigh* They have to know eventually. I’m glad I went though, and I still had a great time.
I got a lot of awesome stuff for Christmas. My family gave me $300 cash, giftcards, candy, snacks, and things that smell good. My grandmother also gave me $100 in cash and my other family gave me cute little things like candy.
I got a lot of games and such: a Sega CD console, Dezaemon 2, Myst, Rayman, Tomb Raider, Croc, and Sega Rally for Saturn, Lost Odyssey for XBOX 360, and a new AV cable for my 360 since I lost my original one. I got some movies, too: Blade Runner, Animatrix, A Scanner Darkly, and two asian films. I still want to buy Strange Days. I also went shopping at American Eagle and aerie and got some really adorable underwear, shirts, and jeans. And I still have some money left over 
Me and Jacquie are doing awesome too!
Update!
I’m moving back to Atlanta today. Savannah, it’s been great but it’s time to move on to nicer houses, better jobs, and bigger cities. My dad’s getting me and Jacquie this after noon but we still haven’t finished packing. And we had to put stuff in garbage bags since we’re losers and didn’t keep our boxes from moving here… Leaving my awesome job sucks so much… I really miss it and my coworkers 
Hopefully I can see them again someday or even work there again.
I’ve recently decided to be completely drug-free.
And I’ve been wanting my surgery stuff done really badly lately… before it was just a distant dream and now it makes me cry sometimes. The worst is when I’m being intimate with my girlfriend and I forget that it’s there, and then I realize. Hopefully within a year or two…
I’ve also been really wanting to be in a more intellectual and professional environment. I’m really sick of wearing all black, sick of hanging out with industrial scene people (other than my closest friends), and sick of not doing anything with my life. I still love the music, definitely, but I just don’t like all the losers and all the cliches and money influence that’s hitting industrial…
I really like dressing “nice” and cute now and talking to nerdy, successful people. I’ve been reading up on programming and such again and expanding my intellect and skill base. I’m so exited about going to college!!
It’s been a while…
Our internet has a bad habit of going out for a week at a time…. it’s back on now, though. A lot has happened since then, so I’ll summarize it:
Me and Connor got in a big, stupid fight and stopped talking for a long time. We’ve made up now and we’re still not talking much since Cairo’s here, go figure 
Also, I *did* get my credit card. I’ve already racked up over $300 on it ($230 or so of which is my next order of pills.)
We spent Thanksgiving with two of my coworkers, and that was a lot of fun. Work’s been great too, although everyone’s been super stressed out about the holidays and the VP of the company coming to check up on us…
And I ruined my shoes in a big puddle and had to buy flip flops. It’s amazing how girly I’ve become
:)
It’s almost Thanksgiving. Two of my coworkers invited me over.
I also got approved for my credit card and it should be coming in the mail soon. I’m excited!
*sigh*
Our internet is out. I’m at Jimmy and Haley’s house right now.
My mom has been nothing but completely awesome lately, and she told me that I can cash my checks instead of waiting for them to post
Cold and finally home.
Today at work was okay. Connor overslept and my phone died, though. We had to wait in the cold until midnight or so for him to come get us, so we ended up going to IHOP and eating. Hopefully I won’t overdraft
I sold some stuff on eBay!
Short-term goals.
I just moved over to Quicken Online because Wesabe wouldn’t load my Bank of America account…
- Transition goals:
Get my wardrobe a little farther along, really sit down and take the time to perfect my voice, get my name and (hopefully) legal gender updated, get people to call me by my new name (Amber)
- Financial goals:
Get a second job or find a way to supplement my income from Anchor Blue to help support myself, continue learning to manage my money, save what I can for SRS and such, invest/save in general
- Spiritual goals:
Keep learning more about communing, energy work, conscious creation, and divination, do a prosperity ritual with Jacquie, meditate at least 3 times a week (to start) for maybe 10-30 minutes a night
Moving forward.
I’m a bit disappointed that I only have 8.5 hours for next week at work… but oh well, it’s better than nothing
I’m making a lot of forward moves in my life. I just applied for my first credit card, started setting up online finance tracking with Wesabe.com, and I’ve set up my iCal and Mail with to-do lists and schedules to keep my life in order. I’m also making a list of short term and long term goals and a list of ways that I can get closer to completing them.
Me and Jacquie are doing sooo perfectly 
Relief.
Everything seems to be okay, thank goodness. My anger has subsided and we’ve taken care of all the rent complications.
Did I mention that I love my job?
Great!
We’re dangerously close to losing our house in 4 days because a certain mopey goth kid won’t actually try and get a job, not saying that he’d for sure get one anyhow since I’m lucky to have gotten part time at one job after applying to like 20 places.
It’s called, dress half decent, smile, and follow up with people. And don’t buy $50 a month of motherfucking cigarettes and expensive food that you can’t afford. And going to Atlanta and having a drug-fest Halloween weekend.
